天堂里，可有monica与你相伴？
by烟(转载请注明出处)
一位朋友看了我的帖，对我说：我觉得张国荣的粤语歌远比国语歌有味道。
我想，他一定是哥哥早期的铁杆歌迷。如我，听港台歌手用不标准的发音唱着国语歌，一张一张地出专辑，已成习惯。而那些广东话歌，已随着一个时代的远去，成为永恒的经典。
是谁说过，在音乐世界里，基本没有语言障碍。于是，我的前辈粉丝们，在那个特定年代，学会了用自己的理解方法唱着标准的广东话歌，而且，还相当地道，至于歌曲所表达的含意，也只能凭臆想了解其意了。这点，也算是港台歌手给大陆青年带来的一种特别文化交流吧？
翻开哥哥生前拍下的无数张图片，都可以见到他一袭白衣，微笑融融的样子，无比亲和。原来，哥哥除了拥有贵气的绅士风采，也有很邻家大哥的一面。
或许，在他患上抑郁症之前，原本就是个很阳光的男子。
哥哥的另类对于当时那个年代来讲，是平庸之辈们无法容忍的现象。他留长发，他穿苏格兰裙，他踩着高跟鞋开个唱……我想，哥哥当时的快乐全来源于他的独特理念，与旁人无关。
据说，哥哥最钟爱玫瑰。即使在告别人生前，也不忘交代他最信赖的人，祭别他请一定用玫瑰，代表着火热浓情依旧。
在一家酒吧里，曾听到张国荣一首很老很老的歌《莫尼卡》，令人血脉贲张的的节奏感，再配上充满偶像气息的MV作为背景播放。很有蓝调的感觉。
我这才发现，人都是具有多面性的个体.即使是狂野，也不在于身体外泄，而是内心一直深藏的原始元素。
在哥哥七周年忌日这天,我听着这曲monica，也不断猜想着，她究竟是谁？在哥哥步入天堂后，是否依旧有她相随相伴？
Yeah...yeah
Oh...oh...
Oh...
Listen
Boy, it"s been a long time
Since the last time I saw you
Feels like nothin" changed
Since we"ve been together
I must admit that I go crazy for you
And I can see it in your eyes
That there"s somethin" you want to say to me
"Cause usually right now
You"ll be holdin" on to me
But instead you tell me
Things have changed, they"re not the same
And recently you found someone that you
Decided to dedicate your whole life to
And what we had is "bout to be through
And baby, what hurts the most is letting go
I just want you to know that I love you so
I know things are different now,
You"ve gone and settled down
And I thought for sure you"d always wait for me
I"ll tell you what hurts the most is
I should have took the chance
Boy, when you came to me and offered me your hand
Silly of me I thought I"ll always have your heart
I had the chance to have all the love oh,
How I"m missing now
I hate that there is someone new
Comin" in and takin" my place
Doin" the things that we used to do
And makin" love to you
And oh, what am I supposed to do
It"s killin" me "cause I want you
And you should have known my love was true
And there"s no one else in this world for me but you
But things have changed, they"re not the same
And recently you found someone that you
Decided to dedicate your whole life to
And what we had is "bout to be through
And baby, what hurts the most is letting go
I just want you to know that I love you so
I know things are different now,
You"ve gone and settled down
And I thought for sure you"d always wait for me
I"ll tell you what hurts the most is
I should have took the chance
Boy, when you came to me and offered me your hand
Silly of me I thought I"ll always have your heart
I had the chance to have all the love oh,
How I"m missing now
I know that I"m the one to blame for losing you, oh, yeah
I really, really wish that I could be happy for you
There"s just one thing I need you to do
Don"t you touch her like you used to touch me
Don"t you love her like you really need me
Don"t you love her like you used to love me
And baby, what hurts the most is letting go
I just want you to know that I love you so
I know things are different now,
You"ve gone and settled down
And I thought for sure you"d always wait for me
I"ll tell you what hurts the most is
I should have took the chance
Boy, when you came to me and offered me your hand
Silly of me I thought I"ll always have your heart
I had the chance to have all the love oh,
How I"m missing now
What hurts the most is letting go
Just to let you know I love you so
What hurts the most is letting go
Just to let you know I love you so
What hurts the most
